Isn't it a Love story?

I always thought I deserved better in everything. But most of the time I was not that much lucky to have anything. Although things happened like that, my heart not ready to accept that reality, so I was trying in anything which wanted to achieve, even if it’s so hard or painful. But eventually, I've been drained of the energy to hold on.

Every time I was with her, I wondered who I was to her. Sometime I thought I was just her friend. Friends, after all, would make some sort of effort to catch up with each other. But I was more likely her assistant. When she needs me for something, she wants my assistance, that’s all she wanted me. But when ever she wanted my attention, help or kindness I did it with bottom of my heart. If her were in broken heart, always I was nearby her and fixed her. I was so happy to do that. If her missed the classes, or had any difficulties about the projects, I was helping her without doing my own works. Sometime she was mumbling her, feelings and emotions via telephone. I only listened to them, I never did let her know that my feelings or emotions about anything. It’s because, I thought she may fed up with my things. So… I cried at the other end of the phone, instead. But I tried to make her up, and I was always telling, everything gonna be Ok for her. I always keep my interesting about her as a secret. I never gave any clue about I liked her very much. I never did any effort into asking her out. I wanted to flirt with her, badly but I never.  I didn’t want to act as pushy boy either and wanted her to feel I’m the boy she is looking for.

When she was flirting with other boys, I cried hard in my heart and kept my patience. So finally,  I thought to make a distance between us and go away from her association. But after few days again she came and asked my help and my kindness. So again I did light up my hope about her caring about me. But after sometime, it happened again the same thing. This was circulating through out the passed three years. But eventually I realized that she was not for me. I was managing not to look at her, as could as possible. I skipped the most of the moment that, I should be with her. When she rang my phone, I ignored it and concentrated my mind and body to some other thing. 

End of the above all, my University life also ending up.Now time has passed almost for six months. she doesn’t phone me anymore. She didn’t ask about me, even from a friend of mine. I am pretty sure that she doesn't miss me. And honestly, she may forgot even existed me in her past. When I think about this, deeply, it feels so hurt for my heart that, she totally forgot me in her heart. But the same time I realized that, she never gave any satisfaction for me but the pain. So it was the truth. And it’s always hard to believe this painful truth for my heart.

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Under the Old Oak Tree.

As usual, I met her under the old Oak tree. That is the only oak tree, which is near by a wooden bench. And this is where I met her for first time. We sat on the wooden bench. Then she looked in to my eyes for a while and leaned on to my shoulders. I always happy to stay like that, So I can feel her breath and smell. Then she runs her fingers through my chest. Her silky hair which disobeyed, is struggling with wind blow. All are seems to be OK, but one thing. Not like other days, she didn’t talk with me much. I could feel how deeply her breaths, and sometime it became a deep sigh too. 

“Why this silence, and sad mood?” I Asked

Instead of answering me, she embraced me tightly. Then I moved my face to her eyes, I could see there are some sparkling tear drops in her eyes which, is trying ooze out soon. Then I kept my lips on her forehead. Suddenly she raised her head due to a noise which was made by a goose in the pond. Then she holds my hands and gave a deep look in to my eyes and turned her eyes towards to the mountain range, while biting softly her lower lip.

Then she stood up and moved a bit forward, and still looking at “Tatra mountain range”. I was looking her back, how beautiful is she? I thought to myself. She is wearing a short frock like the very first day that I saw her. My mind ran away to seven months back.

I’m an Estonian who came to Zakopane, Poland for work. I met her nearby this old oak tree in last winter season. Since then she was falling in love with me. And, then she is everything to me. My life is in this unknown country, would be meaningless without her sweet love. She gave everything to me. So…I couldn’t think about a life without her.

I could hear she is crying softly, and I could see it, while looking at her trembling body. Suddenly she turned back and run to me. Then I stood up. She straightly came to me and hugged me like a baby. She was crying hardly.

“Why this…?”

I asked softly, holding her shoulders and while moving her a little away from me. Now I can see her lovely face closely. Her eyes are reddish, her pinky lips are trembling and yellowish. Tears are oozing upon her pinky cheeks. 

Then her awake her shaking voice…”I’m sorry Edie...I’m really sorry”

 ”For what Juliana?”

 ”I didn't want to loose you ever, that’s why i cheated on you”

”You cheated...? about what...? What are you talking about Yuli?” 

”I’m Sorry Edie...I’m a married women”

And i didn't speak anything. I just stay still.

she surprised about my silence. And looked in to my face. 

”Edie... why you stay still...? why don't you flap on my Cheek...please do it...I deserve it.

I remain the silent and sat on the bench. She is still sobbing. I knew, she doesn't know that, it was known to me, she as a married women, since the day that I met her.

 ”Yuli I knew that...since the beginning. 

She talks with the shaking voice.

”How could that possible...Edie?”

”The day that we met, I saw the wedding ring in your finger. But the next i didn't see it. I knew that you are  pretending as a single. Day by day you were closing to me. Eventually, I feel you are a part of my soul. I didn't want to loose you either...But now i feel, I did the wrong...Because...I should have told you that, then you may walk away from me, at the very begging. I made this sadness in you, yuli....I’m really sorry...My love”

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”No...No...don't say that, you never did wrong, This is the happiest time in my life. Though I married to Kyle, he never loved me. Sometime he didn't come home for months. He lives his own life, i am not in his world. So you are the person who made my life. I knew that I got special place in your heart. I thought, if i tell you about my marriage, you may go away from me. I never wanted to loose you, even now. That's why i cheated on you...Edie.....I’m sorry, Oh god...” 

She was crying while hitting her head on the bench. 

Then I moved to her and bent her face on my chest. It is almost 6’o clock. It will be dark soon. we must leave, before the dark.

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I still love her.. but she is unaware

(Sad Story sent by our one reader: Shaheer Gulzar)

I love her a lot at the bottom of my heart.. she knew about it bt she cant b with me. at every moment of my life i think of her, i want to make her happy. but every time when do anything special for her .... she just say its bcoz of u have a reason n mean to it.. she is with someone else but still i cant stop to think about her n cant stop to loving her... even i m talking to everyone about her only.. she is in contact with me but only as a best friend. at every moment she talks about her partner with me and i cant say her that please dont do this i feel bad.. :( but i just listen to her as a friend n want to make her happy. .... she never ever think about me....:""( i dont know how to stop these all but still i love her)

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Is it good to marry a person you have not any romantic feelings for?

What do you do if you have to marry a person, who is not in romance with you?  

Suppose there is a person, who is wealthy, intelligence and average looking, but you don’t have any romantic feeling about the person. Under certain circumstance you may need to marry this person. what do you do in a situation like above?

How deeply romantic feelings are involving for successful marriage? What would happen if you married this person? 

Well…as I described in an earlier article, romance does give a real push for very beginning in a relationship or even in a marriage. In any happy marriage, intimacy is enjoyed, and it needs to be there. But it’s not enough for long lasting relationship. Gradually we need more and more valid reasons for keep this relationship continues. So in hand, if you could start a relationship or marriage without a romantic feeling for someone, we cannot exactly say, this not gonna workout. It depends on what you do in the relationship. If you can transform this person into the character you want them to be, it will be a good reason for have a feeling about him or her. Other major thing is try to avoid being judgmental and don't give up on all the efforts you make to change them to what you yearn for. Or accept them as they are. Be understanding and start, looking carefully at the qualities that attracted you to this person, You are likely to get the spark where it has been hiding.

So on the other hand, though you try hard to change that person, how you want them to be or accept them as they are, it may not work due to lack of other reasons. And don’t forget that romantic feelings are refreshing the relationship time to time. On this condition, Husband or boy friend feels a special or unique attachment to his wife or girl friend because of the attraction he has towards her and the same applies to the wife or girl friend. This not happens without a romance. Hence, romantic attraction must be there in a progressive and promising relationship besides the other qualities. Not only that, but also if you not have any romantic feelings about them, it’s naturally start failing to give that person their marital due (basically Physical requirement) eventually forcing them to go outside marriage to seek and get what you are denying for them.

However, one day if you have to marry a person, you don’t have any romance for, effective communication is a must. Let your partner know how you appreciate every effort they put forth to make the marriage work, and lovingly help them overcome the barriers you are seeing.

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Can long distance love survive healthy?

Does it long distance love survive healthy? Have you ever come a crossed this type of relationship? Carrying a long distance romance is not an easy thing, It's because, rather than holding it for a time period, it may easy to let go and make the mind up. If you ever have to take a decision on long distance love, are you willing to give it a chance? If you people have to stay separated for a time period, sometimes it may be easy to hold on. But, if you people have to stick in an unknown area for unknown time period, it wouldn’t be an easy thing to manage. But in here, hope is the key. Lets hope to lead the way. It will keep alive both of you. 
 

As I described in early article, most lovers take love and relationships for granted. But in reality, relationships need commitment and a bit of work. Most of the time, chemistry in love and understanding makes things in love seem easier and happier. When you are away from each other, it’s easier to rise up misunderstanding for very little things like, missing schedule meetings, giving phone calls on time, or engaging telephone line, or even for rumors. This makes worse, coz’ either of you can’t do much to ease the tension because both of you are so far away. Other major issues are freedom and loneliness. You have more freedom to do whatever you want, without knowing to your lover. Same time you have a painful loneliness without your lover. It will make up your mind to have more friendly associations with your friends.  So… those two facts will lead easily you for another relationship. Hence Take a chance on long distance love only if both of you can keep the trust and hope for each other.  

Always trust will play the key role for long distance love affairs. You know, it’s very easy to have a great time with someone else when you’re out with a ‘new friend’. Likewise could your partner be up to something? Or perhaps your partner may lose interest in the relationship when they’re having so much fun hanging out with new friends? And the biggest headache in long distance love, attractive new friends. It’s very easy for one partner to get jealous or angry when the other partner gets friendly with a few new attractive people. When new, mysterious friends start posting regular comments on social web sites or start interrupting phone calls, it’s all the more reason to lose your cool. But, still if you can keep trust in your lover, that's the key point. So the good news is, this is the perfect time to realize, who is the real life partner for you and what is the real love are. Both of you will feel how much love means to both of you, when you miss one partner. Not only that, but also when you put more effort to keep your love alive, automatically it will strengthen the relationship with trust, hopes and love. And the same it will raise the more physical feelings about each other,  Long distance love can actually be the biggest relationship test that can help both of you understand how much either of you mean to each other.

All the humans are always growing and changing in to better and newer individuals. But you can’t see these changes, when you stay in together. Coz’ you evolve together. But when you away from each other, and when you go after your own carriers individually, these changes will lead both of you for some other directions. And both of you may end up becoming incompatible partners even if both of you were deeply in love with each other. At the end, Long distance love may be a great test to measure the strength in a relationship.

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